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(cont)...The first few weeks of school were awesome, no parents to control me, all my friends from high school were there, and the classes in the late afternoon rocked!

In mid-September the great life I thought I was leading came crashing down. I never have had a problem with classes, and thank God that I still don’t, but I really wanted to drop out of school. The people I thought were my friends for the last four years of my life were all stabbing me secretly in my back, and that was the world I was so wrapped up in. When I found out all the things they said to belittle me and hurt me, I broke down until I thought there was no point of return. I am a Christian and was raised in the church. I even have been baptized by my own free will, but not once did I look to God for His help in this situation.

My roommate at the time was a student leader at this student organization called CSF (Christian Student Fellowship) and she kept trying to get me to go. Finally I gave in to her constant asking and went. I immediately fell in love with how warm the people there were and was determined to make all new friends and leave my old life behind, but yet I still was not looking to God for His help. I was still trying to rely on people, which for me, is a bad thing to do. One day I had an epiphany and realized that I was not relying on God at all, even though I was going to church and listening to the word. I was not practicing what I heard, so I made a change for the better.  I traded in the fast “ideal” life that I was leading for a life with Jesus Christ. When I finally made this transformation I could feel a physical change inside of me, and though I am not perfect I am fighting for a life spent with Him and trying to grow through Him. He has improved my life so much and for that I thank Him and devote my life to serve Him and tell other people just how He broke me and made me whole.

-Alicia